oh mann. 1 more day to the finals.

:)) actually found out that its not healthy to get angry. when u are angry, some chemicals will be produced in ur body. and its poisonous. it is even worse if you surppress your anger! cux more poisonous chemicals will be produced. hahas. so its not wise to get angry! and thats why i'm happy. :))

quite an exciting week i have mann. its like, you cant study. and all u think bout everyday is badminton, bout the nationals. sleeping at 10 everynight now. shouted till my voice is hoarse. and i have a geog test in 2 days time. an emaths test in 4 days time. and i cant even concentrate for a single hour. terrible. :||

dunman match
haiis. we lost 2-3.lost my match. and thats why we lost? why cant i be a little stronger? and take control of the game and my mind? that puts us in a dangerous position as our fates depended on 2 schools [tkgs and dhs]. yea. :|| its top4 or top8. we were very scared that they are going to conspire agst us.

friday
played rubber with the stupid sinmin doubles. werent even supposed to be like that. why cant we play our game properly? -questions myself for a clueless answer again. -pouts. anw, the scores were like so close. tkgs won 4-1. and we got thru. by the barest of margin u could ever get. tkgs-13pts, sngs-12, dhs-11. like whoa. we were practically crying. sun bin's gonna die!! hahas. none of the 4 dhs teams got into top4! hope he gets sacked by dhs too. -evil laughter.

today-ahs match [semis]
zhang vs weiqi. zhang played some very good shots that weiqi could get. like whoa. our singles are good kkx. but she lost. hahas. its okae. my doubles vs their weaker doubles. haiis. until now i still dunno why we lost. the biggest mistake in my life?? wells, the rest are history. cux we won in the end. thanx to pam and yupei who won emilyn and amanda. yea. -mwa.

meeting tkgs in the finals. like again heh. -smiles. if i cant wake up and help erica, how am i suppose to play like a champ and win it? -dilemma. :|| the fianls are in four days time. i need to play my game. and convince her that she can do it. the problem is how? sometimes i really feel that i have lost hope? -tries to dig out the confidence i have. i need the confidence on court. but she needs to show me some too. haiis. mebbe all hope is not lost yet.

my whole week is so screwed up. so mixed with emotions. -eek

ahs match
coach put me down to play doubles pairing with pamela. its like a last min decision and no one knew bout it? so screwed. then erica and yupei partnered. we had a high chance of winning. until erica and yupei lost their game. hopes were dashed. didn mean to blame anyone but yea. cried. think wht coach said was correct. one black sheep spoils the whole team. well, i guess it it all boils down to one thing. we always learn it the hard way. it happened to us in sec one, last yr, and now this yr. sheesh. if we have the capability, who cares?

couldn sleep that night. had to force myself to be tired only then i could sleep. i was afraid of crying again. afraid of failure. i guess to me, i cant except the word failure in badminton. cux this yr means so much to me and our team. i thot it was the end of us. really. it was tough for all of us. hmphs, my lessons were affected too. and trg. cunt concentrate at all. realised my confidence level dropped.. gee. it was tough. was so frustrated on thurs. i was so afraid i cunt make it. yupps. well, the good thing did happen todae!!

tkgs match
we went there not knowing wad the outcome would be like. until the first match! peixuan vs tiffany. yea. she lost the first set terribly.. then she made a comeback in the second and eventually won the match. it was a joyous moment. we were like already bursting into tears. is the first time she won tiffany!! whoa.

then me and erica played their second doubles. trashed them! like whoa too. thus, we were already leading 2-0.

next up. trish vs samantha. it was sort of a deciding match. but tricia has the ability to win her. she put too much pressure on herself i guess. absolutely screwed her fist game up. shots were all out. however that samantha's service was all above the waist. and that coach tried telling trish to tell the empire but trish didn. then the chief empire quarrelled with coach on court. coach was so agitated, and the chief empire said he was sub-coaching trish how to play. chief empire threatened to send coach out of the sports hall. seriously, trish was feeling so scared. imagine ur coach shouting on court. the pressure was so great. luckily trish won in the end. she cried, not happy, but cux of coach. adn we won tkgs!!

yupei, pam, and zp lost their matches after that. next up we have dunman on tues. think our team's confidence has been lifted since todae. ohyar, ms foo and mrs agnes tan came down to support us. like whoa. under the special request of tricia. hahas. yea. the cdiv won sinmin too.

headed to town after that. bought presents. and watched dumb and dumberer. the show is like one hour only. its not recommended. too lame. and the shits and poo. and melissa was so freaking dirty-minded mann. hahas. thats how my day was. so exciting!!
ohyar,

happy burfday jas!!
happy burdae valerie!!

whoa, think my life now is kinda boring! its trg and more trg everyday. no more excitement for me. haiis. somebody, save me from all the trgs. played so many games these days. and guess wad? the ahs match is just like tmrr? whoa. pretty scary yea? dunno whether i'm scared, nervous or over-confident? whoa. really dunno. lets just hope we trash them tmrr. we should be able too anw.

hmphs, pam teared today after trg. was pretty scary. think it really reminds me of how scary it is getting to be. but i mean, lets just take things in our stride yea. there's no way we cann force things to happen if its not meant to be yours.

speaking bout todae, i was dreaming the whole day. eek! first, i promised to buy everyone taohui from my market there. its really good. -recommended- well, the stall's not open! hahas. and poor tricia was waiting for it. so sorry. then i was dreaming the whole trg. wasnt fast at all. service was too high, or out!! sheesh. bad. but somehow i was tired. very tired thou i feel i wasnt.

good deed of the day: i offered to buy chicken rice for lunch for my two brothers at home. my mom was like:"you better appreciate when she buys food for you. its like once in a green moon." i was like hehh. hahas. and they haven paid me for the chicken rice money yet! hmphs!

good lotsa scolding from my mom todae. and its all pointing towards me. its like so unfair cux i'm a gal? and guys dunn need to do the housewhole chores. gee. everything she say, its directly referring to me. like whf!!

oops! i realised i cant used the word fuck now!! all thanx to my bro. every two sentences, at least one of these words will come out of his mouth. so my parents put a fine of 1 buckeroos whenever he uses the word. and like he was betting that if he says less than 20 times, my parents would give him 20bucks?!? sheesh. and my younger bro was like, you can bribe me ya knoe.. just give me bout 2 - 5 bucks. i was like.. cheapskate!!

gosh! i didn knoe i typed so much. suddenly felt a gush of emotions. hahas.

wed
the stupid elearning thing suckx mann. anw, left early!! its the first day of nats. won cedar. like duhx. the cdiv won too. so exciting. like nats is finally here!! whoa. then had trg at tampines! so damn sway. we had to like fight for the courts with other ppl? yupps. anw, headed back to school. then we went to play bridge at taohui stall. something real funny happpened there. we [me, yuying, yun, pebb, pam] and the xiao de were sitting in another table.. we were all playing cards. hahas. its been a long time since i won. yuying said my cards are so charcoal!! yupps. then mrs quek susian walked in. and i was like quick keep ur cards. hahas. was damn funny. luckily she nvr scold us.

todae
played krangji. i screwed my whole game up. wasnt even concentrating during the game. sheesh. we won in the end. hahas. but i'm so so proud of the cdiv!! think we really did show our true snbt spirit todae. gosh. they beat tkgs where hamikhan [sp?] is in chrage of. yea. which means they are gonna beat scgs too!! hoo-ray! cheers` winnie is good! she is so calm. yea. -hugs winnie tight- was in a bad mood todae. pms. all thanks to someone. but i'm happy now. :)) yea. playing ahs on tues. so lets hope that person dunn spoil my day yea? -ponders

oh mann. sheesh. pple. i'm really sorry so long never update kkx. yupps. sch has started. now at home doing the stupid elearning thing. avoiding the jam so just come now and download everything and just go back to sleep yea? so smart ritex.

anw, i wanna say thanx to those who celebrated my bdae with me!! hahas. meaning the bdiv [w/o ingrid] and yun!! hahas. okae. we went nooch the hopped over to nydc for dessert. whoa. that was really filling. -nods

hahas. i cut my hair. bout a week ago. and now its short. real short. cant tie it up. dunno why pple's reaction were so big and unexpected when i cut it. hahas. next time must give warning when i'm cutting? -errr anw, my dearest partner, who has been the object of laughter for snbt till now says i look like my mom. one nice comment at least. okae. but i couldn't stand chng's comments on me. now valen's telling the whole class. sheesh. she touched my face and said, :"shuwen, ni jian tou fa hao mei wo!" eek! she touched my face. damn it!

nats starting todae!
excited? - tick.
nervous? - cross.
trashing?- tick.
champions? - tick.

alritey. i'm set for it now. hahas. pple, must come down and support us kkx. not todae larr but on tues[next] so that you can see how we trash ahs. yupps. alritey. gonna go eat breakfast now. catch up laters`